Blondes have more fun

Anyone that's known me a while knows how often I change my hair.

It's a little bit silly

I tend to stick to the rule - light for summer , dark for winter. So back to light I go

The aim is to get lighter lighter lighter then eventually convince my hairdresser to dye it grey!

I'm also growing my fringe out , because it's a bloody ball ache 

Hula Hula xox 

Student loan day is coming..

And as well as a huge food shop I've been looking around online to see what I can treat myself too
With graduation and a graduation ball to go to I need stuff, right?

So here we go..

I Found these on depop (a great new app for selling and buying each others clothes) These sandals are only from primark- so great value and style all in one

This is from Zara in the style steals section, I just love the colour of the jacket and only £39.99

Next pick is from misguided - basically I need to get skinny for this. End of 

This has been in my saved items for a while in asos- i just love co-ords!

What do you think ?

Hula Hula xoxo

Forgive and forget

This is an extremely personal post for me but I feel the overwhelming need to blog about it, it feels like a release.
As a precursor i'll explain the basic situation- Me and my dad have never really got on, whenever we've got close I've felt intimidated, unloved and suddenly arguments arisen. It all blew up for good 3 years ago after a very heated phone call.

Present day- I recently came to the conclusion that this is not how i wanted to look back on this situation, just imagine you having to tell your children 'no no I never spoke to your grandad after an argument over the phone' Jesus. So I wrote an extremely long blog style post in which I aired a lot of my feelings and sent it over to him. The response I got was more than unsatisfactory, I cried and sobbed to my housemates and mother alike.

But then a week later I had a message asking to meet up whenever I was home with the promise that 'the stubbornness will be left in the cupboard', I rang my mum and told her the situation in which I was only encouraged further to go ahead -he had rang her and had a massive catch up with her, she told him all about my uni life, my highs, lows and the scares of illness we've had along the years, he replied that he wanted to build bridges.

Sceptical we arranged a place and date- Monday in a local cafe. I've never been so nervous, I noticed he was already in there and I had to compose myself, franticly texting my friend doubting if I could even go in. But there I was wearing kick ass heels, my leather jacket and bright lipstick. With one deep breath I strode in there with all the confidence I could muster.

I won't go into the details but a lot was said. I've never seen my dad show a hint of emotion up until that point and I cried pretty hard too. He addressed every issue that i'd made a point of in my initial message, everything that I've doubted for a good 18 years.
I don't think i've ever much thought that people can change so much for the better until that moment.
One thing that he said has stuck with me ' You're stubborn and argumentative Kerry and you've got that from me, it can be difficult at times but when it comes to it you'll always want to forgive and you won't want to be bitter'. I never thought that he would be able to summarise me so well.

So where does that leave me now?
Well I'm 21 now,  I wouldn't say I need a dad now when I have such a smashing mother, but that wasn't the point of this. Leaving all the negative past behind is what the outcome is, I'm not going to be bitter and resentful of what's happened, it can't be changed. He wants to know what's going on with me then that is more than ok with me. He mentioned graduation and I know a lot of people may (and will) say 'he doesn't deserve to see you do that', why not? it may be me and my mum who have got me to graduation but i'm sure some aspects of his genes have got me there too.

The past is the past. Move on, forgive, (try) forget, but ultimately be happy.

Philosophical

Hula Hula xox

Missing in Action

I've just noticed how absent I've been from this for a while.

I've had a HUGE amount going on in my life, with my priority being my dissertation, but finally I HANDED IT IN ( 2 days early!)

So here is a picture of me with that piece of hell (side note i'm growing out my fringe at the moment and it's hell) 

I need to treat myself to another tattoo now, right!?

Hula hula xoxo